Sometimes Memories Sneak Out…

  Sometimes memories sneak out of my eyes and roll down my cheeks. Before I can catch them. Before I even know they’re coming. I let them flow, embracing their healing touch. I was sitting minding my own business, scrolling Facebook as if I’d completed all my tasks for the day. PING! I have an instant […]

8 Years Ago

  On Wednesday, I shared on Facebook that we were celebrating the anniversary of our son Harvey’s birth and short life.  It’s hard to believe that eight years have passed since that terribly hard time in our lives together.   Matthias (and Marrissa, Wyatt, and Rayna) never met his brother, and he had no clue […]

Fear of Another Fire

  Today while we were cleaning up, the vacuum started smoking…   We were all right in the room – Jason and me and a bunch of the kids.  I’d told J it wasn’t working right and so he had looked at it and was watching and listening to it as Marrissa was vacuuming the […]

The Story of the House Fire

I know everyone has been wondering, so here is what happened.  Tuesday, February 7, 2012 started out to be a pretty fun and normal day.  The older girls were looking forward to their best friend, MK, visiting for the day, and an overnight.  Their friend arrived and the fun started.  All three girls were attending […]


I’ve learned / realized this week that the grief process, is a process. Grief can sneak up on you. It can surprise you. Also, grief doesn’t come when you expect it. You can’t force yourself to grieve. Everyone grieves differently too. I like to have my friends around on anniversary days. My dh wants life […]